If you didn’t already know this, I’m back from directing my first feature film. We wrapped July 1st, a little less than a month ago. I’ve recovered enough to start blogging about the experience.
I had a spontaneous Q and A today and there were lots of questions. But, this was the biggie that overshadowed them all… How did you get that dang film into production?
This is a particularly poignant question because it took so long for me to get a film into production. I worked on Saturn Returns for 5 years before we rolled camera. I worked on a feature project before this one for 5 years. I worked on another one before that for three years. So, it’s taken a lot to get here.
As you can guess, there are several answers to this question, but let’s just start with commitment. A year ago I came to a new place of commitment. Let me tell you what it looked like: I was going to shoot Saturn Returns in June 2014 or I was going to walk away from the project and from being a filmmaker. No joke. I didn’t come to this from a place of being mad or fed-up or desperate. This decision was passionate but very calm. I simply realized that the amount of work I’d done, the capacity I had to keep doing that amount of work, the patience of my husband and my supporters, all of this had a shelf-life and I was near the end of it.
So, I decided to pull out all of the stops. Now, many of you know me and know that I’m a very committed, hard-working person. So, this was a whole new level of energy, time and work. I worked pretty much every night and weekend for an entire year. This is in addition to my coaching business and to being the mother of three year old twins. (No, I don’t have live-in help and I have very little family support besides my husband.) It meant that every trip to Mammoth I had as many meetings as I could and sacrificed R and R. It meant I worked every day of Christmas break.
I don’t tell you this to impress you. I’m just telling you what it took.